Fill in The Blank

I hated these questions in a test. The statement would read and then all of a sudden stop with a big gaping hole in the middle and then finish off. Then the follow up command said “Fill in the blank” it was almost offensive. But in life, this is what we must do. Fill in the blank of what we want, where we see ourselves and our families, and how we are to get there.

By the end of the year, I want to_________.

Go ahead…fill in the blank. Now this isn’t something we can study for, this is something we have to dig deep and ask ourselves some probing questions to really get the most value out of the answer we choose to fill in that blank spot. Life is FULL of blanks to fill. What do you want to do for a career? Do you want to get married? Where do you want to live? Where do you see yourself in 5 years? (My least favorite question). I most prefer where do you see yourself in a month or 3 even. It feels more attainable less daunting.

What I realized today, is that time can be left blank and even when you fill it with something, that something is taking up the void that perhaps something else could’ve filled. For example, I was flipping through shows to watch or a movie to start last night while Josh studied. I spend 30 min going between the remote and checking my phone and still didn’t find anything to watch. I was shook! 30 minutes you guys 30 minutes just LOOKING. BROWSING. Aimlessly. I looked back up at the TV and it had landed on The Pursuit of Happiness. I watched the trailer and remembered a part in the movie where Chris Garner mentions managing his time ever so meticulously to maximize the time he had to give up work productivity in order to get his son and be a father. He calculated down to the minutes of even getting up to get water, or not hanging up because it took a total of however many minutes to pick the phone back up and dial out again. I’m going to leave it here for you to watch. It’s epic and inspiring and at the same time chilling because what the hell am I dont with my time sometimes.

Don’t get me wrong it’s perfectly OK to just veg out to a night of Netflix because I mean balance people. But how the hell are we supposed to fill in that blank if we are filling it in with other things all of the time?

I had spent the last month complaining about a choice I made that I won’t mention yet. I regretted it for a few reasons but at the same time feel liberated by it. Yet I was doing nothing to change it or even give it the possibility to change. I put the remote down last night and began my journey to fill in the blank with purpose.

I wanted to share this because I feel like a lot of us wish or hope that that blank space will someday miraculously fill itself, some even expect it to. But that blank is filled by you, by your why, by your drive and motivation.

So go ahead, fill in the blank. And it wouldn’t hurt to watch The Pursuit of Happiness. That’s what I’ll be doing tonight 🙂

XO,

GV